Feelings of Guilt and Regret

I sit to write this my heart is heavy and my eyes are filled with tears. I found out today that a dear friend of mine, a woman of God that I looked to as a mentor and an ispiration passed away from cancer two days ago. I will go to her wake tonight and the funeral tomorrow. My heart is not heavy because she has died, but because of guilt for never telling her how much she ment to me and how much of an ispiration she is to me. I haven't seen or spoken to her in sevreal months. She was diagnosied with cancer in her knee only a couple of years ago. After batteling that cancer for sevral months she lost her leg. She was happy, vibrant, free of that pain and on track to recovery. Even though I knew loosing her leg was a tough time for her, she stayed strong. Not long ago I heard the cancer had come back and was in her lungs, and then just last week I heard it had spread all over her body and the doctors gave her less than two months, and today I heard the news of her death. I have tears because of the loss and because she has left behind a husband and a young daughter. In turn I know she is in heaven with Jesus and free of pain and much better off than the rest of us and for that I am glad. My heart is heavy because I put of so many times calling her and seeing her and telling her how much she ment to me. The feelings of regret and guilt overwhelm me and I wish I could change it.